does tenure rhyme with manure?

it should.

cause it is.

well not tenure.

tenure is awesome.

but the tenure process is definitely a big steaming pile of...

let me explain. 

i have to make a tenure portfolio.

which is essentially a list of everything i have done for the past 3 years.

um...
insane, much?

i mean,

i'm organized.

or at least i thought i was.

but this is ridiculous.

i am going through file cabinets, emails, other people's documents,

all in attempts to prove that i am awesome at what i do.

the amount of work i am putting into this document is astounding.

(i have a job, and yet i am working on my resume. wtf?)

and the kicker is,

i'm awesome.

the kids know it,

i know it,

my administrators should know it,

and now i have to make sure the state of new york knows it?

bananas.

i mean,

i'm crazy.

but what teacher isn't?

(you'd have to be, right?)

and i have bad days.

(but who doesn't?)

but for the most part,

i think, anyways,

i rock.

so the fact that my life is being turned upside down by this,

blows.

and sometimes i'm not even sure i can handle doing this job another year

so there have been more than a few times

(today)

that i have wondered if it was all worth it.

and then i remember the kids.

damn them.

they are so flipping cute.

and want to learn so much,

that i know it is worth it.

but sometimes that doesn't make this whole process any easier.

and i wish it did.

what does though,

is knowing that the administrator that gives me hell on a daily basis

also has to do this.

the tenure portfolio, i mean.

awesome.

times a million.