cause it is.
well not tenure.
tenure is awesome.
but the tenure process is definitely a big steaming pile of...
let me explain.
i have to make a tenure portfolio.
which is essentially a list of everything i have done for the past 3 years.
or at least i thought i was.
but this is ridiculous.
i am going through file cabinets, emails, other people's documents,
all in attempts to prove that i am awesome at what i do.
the amount of work i am putting into this document is astounding.
(i have a job, and yet i am working on my resume. wtf?)
and the kicker is,
the kids know it,
i know it,
my administrators should know it,
and now i have to make sure the state of new york knows it?
but what teacher isn't?
(you'd have to be, right?)
and i have bad days.
(but who doesn't?)
but for the most part,
i think, anyways,
so the fact that my life is being turned upside down by this,
and sometimes i'm not even sure i can handle doing this job another year
so there have been more than a few times
that i have wondered if it was all worth it.
and then i remember the kids.
they are so flipping cute.
and want to learn so much,
that i know it is worth it.
but sometimes that doesn't make this whole process any easier.
and i wish it did.
what does though,
is knowing that the administrator that gives me hell on a daily basis
also has to do this.
the tenure portfolio, i mean.
times a million.