maybe i am a bit of a disaster

so at the beginning of the year

i made a list.

a to do list.  

too bad i am a huge disaster.

5 months gone and a couple of the things on my list are now impossible.

fabulous.

half marathons,

clearly not happening.

i did the manhattan one, 

but the brooklyn one closed before i could sign up,

and i will be in mexico for the queens one, 

so... disaster number one.

run 18 miles a week. 

hilarious.

i haven't run a total of 18 miles this year.

unless you add in my half marathon.

disaster number two.

and disaster number three, 

the nyc marathon.

i put my name in the lottery,

but yet again,

i did not make the cut.

why are all of my disasters running disasters??

hello fatty. 

it's nice to meet you.

my only non-disaster:

the tattoos.

of course,

now i want another one.

does this have disaster potential?

100 percent.

books,

i have read 13. 

in 5 months.

minor disaster.

i am currently reading 4 more.

but that is still a long way off from 52. 

we could be looking at a disaster.

ice cream,

however,

i may just actually be able to achieve.

i've made 13. 

so i'm half way there. 

and i still have 7 months left. 

maybe i will be able to add this to the very small non-disaster list.

maybe.

DR.

it's happening. 

i haven't bought my ticket yet, 

but it is.

in august.

with ep.

and it's going to be rockstar.

and i'm also going to 

mexico.

for a month.

with jb for 10 days,

lp for 15 days,

and kb for 7 days.

and i wish i had a bigger word than rockstar 

cause that is what this trip is going to be:

bigger than rockstar.

so i'm adding that to my resolution list.

cause even though it wasn't on the list,

it is kind of a big thing that i'm doing. 

and it totally goes along with 

learning spanish.

which i am still attempting.

and which, hopefully, mexico will help with.

the philosophy classes 

or ESL classes 

have really not happened,

nor does it look like they will.

but there is still 7 months.

so maybe. 

but to be safe i would add them to the disaster potential list.

and at this point, 

i don't have any idea as to when i would go to 

hotlanta.

i mean, 

the summer is full of spanish fun time.

and then the school year

is not the most conducive to travel.

but we will see. 

but again, 

it's going on the disaster potential list. 

i do,

however,

want to add another resolution:

hot yoga.

i already completed one 30 day challenge in march.

i want to complete another in september.

and i am going to try and go as much as possible for the month of june.

(got to get bikini ready for mexico)

and maybe i should do another as much as possible month at the end of the year,

like in december for example.

even though i am adding this to the list,

i know my ability to follow through is not the best,

so this definitely has disaster potential.

so here is the break down:

non-disasters:

1. tattoos

shouldn't be a disaster:

1. ice cream

2. DR

3. mexico

4. learn spanish 

(as much as one person can "learn" a language)

disaster potential:

1. books

2. philosophy class

3. ESL classes

4. hotlanta

5. hot yoga

definitely disasters:

1. half marathons

2. 18 miles a week

3. nyc marathon

added resolutions:

1. mexico

2. hot yoga

i love that i have more disaster resolutions

than ones that can ever possibly not be disasters. 

hot mess.